EVERYTHING IS UPDATED, HAVE A LOOK AROUND, I AM OFFICIALLY BACK.

HI GUYS.

i guess little by little i'll talk about what's going on. a little in each entry. it'll take some time, but i'll get through it.

i can't wait.

so guess what? i start GED classes at my new school on Monday. i got in with a 347/400 on my entrance exam, the highest score ever recorded at the school. i had an interview w/ my new teacher today, and he said they'll be happy to have me start as soon as possible. it's gonna be wild in there, so expect a lot more posts full of wacky stories and random events. HERE WE GO AGAIN!

holy shit this is awesome. an lj app for my phone. i guess you can expect frequent entries again, huh? when something happens i can post right away. this is actually BETTER than posting from home later on. heh heh, awwwriiiiight.

THE PEOPLE OF THE STATE OF NEW YORK VS. SEGARRA, KRISTIN
[ADDRESS WITHHELD]
BROOKLYN, NY, 11229
DOB 5/18/91, SEX F

THE PERSON DESCRIBED ABOVE IS CHARGED AS FOLLOWS
TIME 10:25 PM, DATE OF OFFENSE 8/28/08, KINGS COUNTY, 61ST PRECINCT
PLACE OF OCCURRENCE INSIDE SHEEPSHEAD PLAYGROUND, NOSTRAND AVE @ AVE Z
IN VIOLATION OF SECTION 103, SUBSECTION A3

DESCRIPTION OF CRIMINAL COURT OFFENSE
UNAUTHORIZED TRESPASSING

THE PERSON DESCRIBED ABOVE IS SUMMONED TO APPEAR AT CRIMINAL COURT
[LOCATION WITHHELD]
DATE OF APPEARANCE 9:30 AM, 12 DAY OF NOV. YEAR 2008

I personally observed the commission of the offense charged above. False statements made herein are punishable as a Class A Misdemeanor pursuant to Section 210.45 of the Penal Law. Affirmed under penalty of perjury.

[OFFICER'S SIGNATURE]
AGENCY NYPD, SQUAD NAS

CRIMINAL COURT - CITY OF NEW YORK
Failure to comply with these instructions may result in the issuance of a warrant for your arrest.

TO PLEAD GUILTY
YOU MUST PERSONALLY APPEAR AT THE COURT AND LOCATION SPECIFIED ON THE FACE OF THIS SUMMONS.

the rest is pretty unimportant, it's basically 'appear in court and plead guilty or we'll make you go through a lot of shit ok'

so long story short, me and three friends just got charged with trespassing for sitting in a fucking park past 9 PM. (our other two companions got off scot-free because they were under 16). thanks for not giving us any indication the park was closed, assholes. no visible signs and the gate was WIDE FUCKING OPEN. we even told them we had no idea, and they still charged us. just further proof that the NYPD has no fucking clue what the fuck they're doing anymore.

on top of that, they searched three of the boys, claiming they fit the description of three suspects of a robbery committed less than an hour earlier. i think that's just a cheap excuse - we know they were searching them because they were skaters, and cops around here love to assume all skater kids smoke weed. they were looking around like we were fucking hiding something. can we not take a break in a park for ten minutes without being accused of some ridiculous shit? we got charged and have to appear in court for SHIT NOTHING!! there are worse crimes happening all around Brooklyn and we get slapped with nonsense charges for HANGING OUT? it just REALLY pisses me off. and i wouldn't be surprised if they actually try to pin a full charge on us when we appear in court. FUCK. THE. POPO.

and Danny's not even here to talk to me, he's on VACATION. this is reeeeal nice. FUCK.

IN THE PAST SEVERAL WEEKS OF NOT POSTING

everyone's favorite bitch Krystal started high school all over again, it's really hilarious!! she must feel really stupid tho, she went to graduation and everything, thought she was done, and next thing she knows she's back in the same old halls. poor girl. NOT.

in the meantime i'm getting out of high school!! yep, granted the proper papers are filed on time, i'll be finishing in January 2009 with a job secured. i'll be working for some time and possibly taking prep classes on my way to getting a GED (General Equivalency Diploma). it seems simple enough even tho i've heard otherwise - my guidance counselor looked at my records from elementary school until now and said it looks like it'll be no trouble for me. sweet!

so at the moment, i'm sorta in school part-time? i'm very lax on life atm. i've been attending classes about three times a week, taking some pretty nice courses, and chilling with Cartoon Mafia and some other friends in the interim. there's been family drama OF COURSE, cause my dad doesn't believe in me enough and thinks that i don't know what kind of a decision i'm making. i wish he'd just let me grow up on my own already and not hang over every fucking breath i take, fucking geez, man. i'm not letting it get to me tho. i enjoy the way things are going for the time being :]

Danny and i have had a lotta relationship progression recently, sorta opened up to each other more i guess. he finally met my family for real, and in a -shocking twist-, my dad actually likes him a lot!! he even invited Danny for dinner the next week!! so we did that, and i'm just sooo happy it worked out in an awesome way. aside from him coming over, i've also slept overnight at his place twice by now. that could go into a whole bunch of side stories about fatassery, holding hands under the stars on a hilltop buzzed up at 2 AM, and realizing how much one single person can change your feelings about everything, but maybe these are things best left unsaid. i love this man with all my heart, and i can't wait until we celebrate one whole year together, and two whole years of knowing each other, near the end of this month. plus..

when he picked me up from school today (he does that now) i overheard him telling some people we know that he plans to propose to me within a few weeks!! it wasn't too shocking since it wasn't the first hint towards it, but i got so excited! i would be absolutely fucking delighted to marry him. everything is just happening so fast, but it's made me all the more sure that this is what i want. i want a future with this charming, hilarious, handsome, WONDERFUL man. and dare i say it? i want a child. not now, of course, that's down the road.. but he loves children, and i know he wants one, especially with me as the mother. it's been on my mind a lot lately, and i've realized how complete the picture would seem if we could raise a little family. he's the only person i would ever consider doing so with, since i for the most part cannot stand little brats, but with him? aw hell, let's have a baby, baby. ♥ *giggle* am i actually rambling on about this stuff? i can't believe it either.

i'm kinda tired right now, so i'm done here.. just thought a post would be nice to put everything into perspective for myself and to catch people up. it's really all falling into place, isn't it? i need to use this thing more often once again. :] peace and beshitos from Pikachu o'-'o ♥

Wouldn't it be amazing if Simon Cowell was tsundere for Paula Abdul?

LETTER MY PARENTS JUST RECEIVED IN THE MAIL:

Congratulations! Kris has been nominated for recognition in the 2007-2008 Who's Who Registry of Academic Excellence (High School Edition). This esteemed publication features only the most elite students in the nation based on exceptional academic success and overall achievements for their age group.

Published by the Washington DC-based American Who's Who Association for High School, the Who's Who Registry of Academic Excellence is the premier Who's Who publication, offering sensational students the most exposure and highest prestige. If selected for this honor, Kris's biography will appear in the 500+ page hardcover book and Kris will be eligible to apply for a number of scholarships awarded through the Student Scholarship Foundation.

There is NO FEE for inclusion in the book, nor an application fee for the scholarships. The mission of the association and its partnering publication is to encourage excellence by recognizing outstanding students and awarding scholarships for financial support.

[information on finishing the application to be included in the registry, yadda yadda radda radda]

Our selection committee will review Kris's information to ensure it meets the screening criteria. Upon acceptance, you will receive a proof of Kris's biography to approve for publication or to make corrections and provide additional information. You will also have the option of obtaining a personal keepsake copy of the book and/or personalized plaque as mementos of Kris's achievements in High School. Additionally, you are eligible to apply for a scholarship through the Student Scholarship Foundation at this time.

About Us
The American Who's Who Association for High School generates scholarship funding from book sales and donations from non-profit charities. Books are registered with the Library of Congress and sent to 100 top universities and colleges and thousands of high schools across the nation.

[contact information for more details on the organization]

Give your high-performing student an advantage in the academic world and ensure Kris receives this deserved recognition. Please take a moment to accept our invitation by applying for this honor today.

Wishing Kris continued success,
Gary C. Shirley
Publisher

OHHHH SHIIIIIT. BEEFYYYYYY!! that's all i can think to say right now.

ok so there's this guy. he started off pretty chill, we met when he was buying and delivering drinks to that house party. we started hanging out in meetups with the other dudes in the neighborhood as well as my CTM girls. it would usually be Monica/Alyssa/me (M.A.K.) and Alex/Steve/him (A.S.H.). we've been having fun just chilling and going to the mall and doing such stupid shit. but recently, there's been a bit of a.. problem, to put it mildly.

the boys of A.S.H. started no less than an OBSESSION with me. in the past week, they've begun to call me non-stop, appear on my doorstep in the middle of the day while i'm not home, and get more physical with me. it reached a seriously creepy point this past weekend. i spent Saturday with Danny, and my ringer was off on my phone. when i checked it in the middle of the afternoon, it revealed they'd called me 6 times. i shrugged it off and dismissed them. it got a little weirder after i left, when i opened my phone and found EIGHT MORE missed calls and one voicemail, stating that they were 'worried' about me. i was like 'ok whatever' and deleted all that stuff. moments later i got a phone call from the guy previously mentioned, and we chatted for a bit, i told him where i'd been, and i said if everyone was gonna hang out tomorrow, i'd join them. it was all good. no more phone calls, right?

WRONG. they showed up on my doorstep Sunday morning looking for me while i was still in bed. thinking that maybe Alyssa and Monica would hang out too, i called them when i got up and told them i'd come meet them as soon as i could. apparently this answer wasn't good enough for them!! i turned my ringer off while i ate and got ready to go, thinking they wouldn't bother me. i returned to my phone to find no less than TWENTY MISSED CALLS and ELEVEN VOICEMAILS. on top of that, no sooner had i gotten over my shock than they appeared at my door once more, urging me to hurry up (and also offering me a milkshake from Dunkin Donuts). i got the rest of my stuff together while scrolling through the nonsense voicemails and left for the mall with them.

i would rather not recount the events of what happened after that, but i assure you it was horribly creepy, utterly perverted, and made me not even want to leave my house this morning, thinking of what might greet me on my front porch if i so much as POKED MY HEAD OUT OF THE WINDOW. i really didn't want to talk about what was making me so uncomfortable at school, but the boys got it out of me and instantly flew into a rage. they insisted on coming to my house along with the girls this afternoon and waiting to see if the boys even dared to show up. everything went as planned, and i had Alyssa, Monica, Julia, Taylor, Nathan, and Vincent occupying my room soon enough.

the calls started around 6:15, and the boys were ready to go the second they heard the guy's voice behind Alex's. "IS THAT HIM?" "WHERE ARE THEY?!" "DON'T HOLD ME BACK!". i tried to calm them down, but it just so happened that my dad said it was time to go.. just as Alex and the guy arrived in front of my house.

i've seen the run up to many fights before, but never one so fast as Taylor, Nathan, and Vincent fucking BOOKING IT the fuck out my room and into the driveway.

it got heated, let me tell you, but nobody got hit.. yet. i'm pretty sure everyone's ready to scrap after the confrontation tonight, especially Taylor and Alex, who had to be held apart from each other. news got spread quickly too, so now i have Barry ready to throw hands at the drop of a hat. i don't even wanna TALK ABOUT how BADLY Danny wants to make this guy wish he'd never been born!! and here i am in the center of all this, really not knowing what to do. i don't want to go outside or anything, i want to stay in here and only leave to see Danny or the M.A.K. girls. i can't. i really can't do this.

all i know is some shit is about to go down, and i feel like it's all my fucking fault.

Mark "RMD" Ferderbar was an inspiration for us all to aim for the stars and turn the most mundane activities like your 5000th post in an internet forum into a spectacle.

He was also a great source of humor for many years before he became an incredible dick who made good on every possible opportunity to indirectly call me a slut.

Nonetheless, we will always remember him as that dude who didn't watch anime, surely didn't spend entire summers in his mother's basement on the computer, and MOST CERTAINLY did not play POGEYMANGZ.

We'll miss you, RMD.

If only you'd answered your phone.

so they gave me another report card today, the same one i received in the mail

except it was like posting on an imageboard or some shit, like

"Edward R. Murrow High School posted at 9:50 AM:

Math A - N
American History - N
English Literature - N
Mass Media - N
Health - N
Resource Management - N
Spanish II - N

LOL FIX'D"

yeah, i rode the N Train. again. except they, you know, told me i didn't like two weeks ago.

MURROW TRYNNA PLAY ME NOW. I SEE HOW IT IS.
fuck this goddamn shit i can't groove on that
also there were two fights and several arguments today what the fuck is wrong with this building
AT LEAST THE WEATHER WAS NICE TODAY AND DANNY IS BACK FROM HIS VACATION UPSTATE. ALL RIGHT.

KEIKAKU DOORI.

the story so far:
Monday the 21st - it went well. we both managed to get what we wanted done with no complaints. this is how great we go together i suppose ~ however i ended up sleeping quite restlessly afterward and somehow didn't feel quite right..
Tuesday the 22nd - to my pleasant surprise, the exam didn't start until 12:30. to my horrified shock, it was 15 multiple choice and two essays that day. feeling quite cheated, i went home and had a big fight with my father (as usual) then got cheered up by Alyssa, Monica, and Alex. our other friend was James was a bitch and walked into my room, said hi, then dipped. it was pretty good times tho from then on.
Wednesday the 23rd - shit got worse! the train ran express so i missed my stop, and had to take the southbound line back just in time to make it before they closed the doors. on top of that, they gave us 10 more multiple choice and two more fucking essays. do short answer questions not exist anymore or what? when i got home my not-quite-right feeling came back, along with terrible abdominal pains. i left the house after dinner to meet up with Alyssa and Alex, the latter of whom insisted i was prolly pregnant and made me almost burst into tears insisting i wasn't. he warmed me up some chicken ramen to make up for it, and when i got home i found out it was my fucking time of the season doing all the harm. ffff.
Thursday the 24th - i went over to see Danny despite feeling like utter shit, but i knew he'd be the only thing that could make me feel any better. we played video games together and he was generally acting very cute and caring which i enjoyed. at the time we weren't quite sure of our weekend date plans but i was hoping for the best.
Friday the 25th - Alyssa asked me to meet her, Monica, and Taylor under the train overpass at Sheepshead Bay Station early in the morning, so yeah. we ended up all getting lunch together and calling Cuz to get Nathan and meet up with us at my place later. we got to my house around 2:30 and Cuz arrived around 4, bringing a Double Gulp from 7-Eleven to replace Nathan cause his ass was lazy that day lmao. LOUD AND WILD HILARITY ENSUED and my mom got pissed. Alyssa, Monica, and i are now ANOTHER sub-division from the All-Star Cast called M.A.K. (pronounced 'mack'). teehee.
Saturday the 26th - o lawd i felt like shit again. Danny cancelled our plans late Friday night, and he said we'd hang out with Eliza and his goddamn cousin i can't stand instead. so i said fuck that!! the best part was neither of them showed up either. we talked on the phone for a bit and later on AIM tho so it wasn't a total loss i suppose, i got my rest and he didn't miss me all that much. :]
Sunday the 27th - he IMed me early this morning to tell me this time -he- said fuck it cause of his cousin lmao. so he told me to come over instead!! i obliged and great fun was had. we watched cartoons, played more video games, and he fell asleep in my arms with the lights out. every time i tried to wake him up to tell him i had to go, he'd just pull me closer or snuggle up more himself. X333 i was in heaven and didn't even want to leave, i would've rather just slept there with him. his sleeping face is so beautiful and the way he latched onto me, smiling in his sleep, made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. <333 feeeeh i'm rambling. i could write a whole monologue piece on my thoughts and feelings as i watched over him, but i guess that's for another day.

so with all that over and done with, i now have my plans for the final two days before Cycle 3 begins and we return to good old Murrowbutt.
Monday the 28th - Alyssa's house! she's mad that M.A.K. hasn't met up since we formed the sub-division, so we're having our first official hangout as M.A.K. tomorrow. GO STUPID!
Tuesday the 29th - Danny's house! yes, again. we have unfinished business to be settled. uhuhu <3!

on a closing note, SO I HERD dale is mad at me, what? i don't really care i'm just wondering. rmd isn't exactly a reliable source sometimes. ff.

I KNEW THAAAAT.

Terusama: oh god tell me how you organize a date on AIM
Terusama: "well i get up around 10" "so come on AIM after you wake up a bit like 10:35 and IM me then" "ok"
rmd: actually nvm i dont know your aim
rmd: oh yes i do
rmd: but now its ruined
Terusama: you don't even go on aim
Terusama: i removed your ass from my buddy list ages ago
ant: lmao
rmd: THEN WHO DID I JUST PROPOSITION FOR SEX

*i look at my AIM window*

ArrEmmDee: I CAN SCHEDULE YOU FOR SEX AT 2 PM TOMORROW
HapinasuSunChild: SURE IF YOU'D LIKE A BLOODY DICK
HapinasuSunChild: I'M ON MY PERIOD.
ArrEmmDee: OH.
ArrEmmDee: HOW IS IT.
HapinasuSunChild: KINDA SUCKS.
HapinasuSunChild: I GET FLU SYMPTOMS.
ArrEmmDee: NO DOUBT.
ArrEmmDee: NO DOUBT.
HapinasuSunChild: WORD.
ArrEmmDee: ok then nvm i dont enjoy bloody dicks
HapinasuSunChild: i'm sure you don't
HapinasuSunChild: and yet you are watching killer lolis and hoping the male lead gets some in a dark room
ArrEmmDee: the last time i had sex with a girl on her period i did not enjoy it
HapinasuSunChild: bloody dicks would be rampant
ArrEmmDee: THEYRE TALKING ABOUT KILLING HIM
ArrEmmDee: YANDERE CHICKS ARE HOT
ArrEmmDee: AIM IS GAY
HapinasuSunChild: I TOLD YOU YANDERE WAS IN
ArrEmmDee signed off at 12:58:01 AM.
ArrEmmDee is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.

hooray for the week where we chill between taking the tests which decide our graduation. and nothing more than that, thank you, because everyone acts like the Regents Exams are our entire future. what bullshit.

here's what i'm doing!
Monday the 21st - Danny's house! i want to fuck so badly before the exams but trust this bastard to say he wants to DECK BUILD for his TOURNAMENT. HOW DO YOU PASS UP SEX FOR DECK BUILDING, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S BEEN FEENIN -ALL- WEEKEND?! maybe he'll understand if i beg.. or fucking rip him off his seat and shove him on the bed, whichever comes first..
Tuesday the 22nd - New York State English Regents Examination Part 1! i am not worried. it's prolly gonna be some bullshit-ass multiple choice and some reading selections. this could only be made hellish if i'm still horny as fuck. afterward i'm gonna chill with the Mafia.
Wednesday the 23rd - New York State English Regents Examination Part 2! this worries me slightly. it's two essays, which i am notorious for having trouble finishing. apparently you can bullshit your way through easily enough?? and i'm majoring in English so it may be no trouble after all, barring.. you know. more Mafia adventures should ensue.
Thursday the 24th - Danny's house again! idk he wants me to come over on Thursday as well since i normally do. i enjoy spending time with him tho of course so i don't mind. <3
Friday the 25th - chillin with Cuz! he called this morning and asked when i'm free this week since we haven't chilled in a loooong minute. hopefully Nathan can join us and we can all finally work on a song together and other such shit. it'll be fun.
Saturday the 26th - going out with Danny! this is the day of his tournament and i said i wanted to come since it's only a bus ride from my place, so we made it a date. even if he says i'll be bored while he competes, i know i won't be since the game store they're holding it in has a wide selection of merch and apparently a cyber cafe upstairs. plus, i'm never bored watching him no matter what he's doing. <333
Sunday the 27th - no idea! looks like this one's gonna be a free day unless the tournament is two days long. in that case i'll be out supporting my love again. it's gonna be an interesting weekend to say the least.
Monday the 28th - TBA! will edit this as soon as i know.
Tuesday the 29th - TBA! will edit this as soon as i know.

on the 30th, Cycle 3 starts. oman. we're officially halfway through this school year and it kinda sucks!! we've had some epic times and met some great new friends so far, but we've also been down for the count and lost some crowd favorites. tell me how Barry moved to Long Island. that's like the cement of the Cartoon Mafia cracked right there. ever since then it's been a sort of downward spiral of events, ending in a dull yet violent thud at a house party this past Friday. i honestly don't want to hear about any of it ever again and would like to pretend it never happened. unfortunately, everybody else had the goddamn time of their lives with the events that unfolded, so i doubt people'll be forgetting about it any time soon and there may even be a repeat performance in the near future. the only good news there is that Lil Julia (who now goes by Jewel for easier reference) deleted the pictures and videos left on Alex's phone from that night. the only remaining evidence is on the party host's digital/video camera, which frankly he can keep - as long as it never gets leaked to the public and we keep its existence on a relative down-low. that said.. idk. it should die down after a good week or two. let's hope.

on one final note, i got my report card for Cycle 2 mailed to me:
Math A - N
American History - S
English Literature - N
Mass Media - G
Health - N
Resource Management - N
Spanish II - S
this is quite good considering how i was doing before. this is the start of an upward trend, i tell you! Cycle 3 is only gonna make things better. look forward to more frequent updates during this week and into the coming months. it's about time i stopped being such a laaaazy blokmang. word out.

PS - Alex and Monica in love, 1-9-08! SHOCK AND HORROR!

Life was horrific up until recently. Horrific.

I'd been pretty depressed. I wrote a whole three-page piece on what goes on in my head (excluding things that nobody really needs to hear, i.e. thoughts on my sex life and graphic depictions of my past physical abuse). I think it served its purpose well, but not well enough. Nothing's really being done about it seeing as I won't go back to therapy and my guidance counselor is a bigoted dick. If nothing else gets in the way I'll post it here before New Year's Eve and get the opinions of my valued internets. Cool?

Today is Christmas. I thought it was gonna turn out better than usual because Christmas Eve was SO FUCKING BEEFY but when I got up this morning it sucked again. Last Christmas was better than this. Last night was like a whole separate holiday tho. I spent the day with Danny alternating between making jokes and making love, at some points both at once, cause that's how we roll. On my way out the door, he handed me 30 bucks and said Merry Christmas, and I was shocked. He informed me afterward that 20 bucks should go towards a 60-pack of condoms, which I agreed to, and the other 10 can be added to the fat wad of however-much-I-want dollars I'm getting from my daddy. See, this is why life isn't horrific anymore. Or it's one reason why. My family says they're making an effort to understand me, and if my dad's interpretation of this is giving me everything I want, I'm not complaining. I've never been a spoiled brat type EVER unlike my sisters, and it feels like this is a reward for that. I am definitely not complaining. On top of that, I'm still with Danny, and last night was our 7 month anniversary. I think my elation at the events of said night speaks volumes, so I will say no more on that subject. :]

What I really can't wait for is this Friday. Remember the house party I mentioned around the end of the summer? They're throwing a 'sequel' at the same place, and it's gonna be even better. More people are coming, and we were asked to put in requests for types of food and alcoholic + non-alcoholic drinks we want that night, so everyone should be satisfied. Barry and Alex are DJing, and everyone else'll basically be drinking, dancing, and gaming into the night. Part 2 is a sleepover - everyone's getting the room of their choice and has been promised privacy. I suggested to Alex that he and the host should give out condoms as party favors, seeing as some freaky shit'll prolly go down. Dunno if the host is gonna agree but we hope so. The host is also urging that EVERYONE stay until morning, because there's gonna be a Part 3 - a 'special event' as I put it; he won't give any info beyond 'it's gonna be big'. I personally can't fucking wait and will sleep with a bat next to me in case of Wandering Alexes in the middle of the night. XD

So that is what is up more or less. Cartoon Mafia took pics on the handball courts on the last day of school, we hope to get those up at the end of the break. BTW this year's Christmas Party SUCKED - there were these fat bitches standing around the boombox jumping around and making the CD skip, right? Barry, Taylor, Vincent, and I were standing behind them at the drink table. We took that good look at them, then at each other, and paused before saying "Let's dip". Shit was fish 'n' chips but damned if it wasn't hilarious.

Also I stole a party promo poster off a streetlight outside school cause it featured a NARUTO fanart of Sakura, Ino, and Hinata in Slutty Santa outfits. Shit was beefy and it's still in my backpack. Laulle.

With that, word out. Merry Christmas.

PS: The other reason life isn't as horrific anymore is cause I actually feel healthy again. No idea what's causing this sudden jolt in my energy, but it's fucking SCRUMPTIOUS. WORD OUT.